Hi, welcome to Inner Reformation! My name is Tessa Priem. You can learn more about me on the right and by perusing my site. I am beginning a new phase to my dance project; my life story is danced out, now I aim to put it into words. I'm playing around with the term "reality literature" or "social media lit," where I will be sharing my writings via Facebook. My website will sort of serve as the hub where it's all collected. Enjoy!
The Autobiography Written
I was once told, "Getting to know you is like diving into a 3 x 5 pool." I laughed when I read it, and yet it hurt. It was sadly true: getting to know me was HARD. The man continued, "Getting to know you is like diving into a 3 x 5 pool, and I want to dive into an ocean." He wasn't saying, "Tessa, you're shallow. There's not much to you." He was highlighting, "You won't let me dive deep."
I kept his words with me because I knew that's not who I wanted to be. And yet, for me to let people SEE me, well, that was a no-no. For them to know what was inside me, no way! Or to externally see my vulnerabilities, heavens no!
But as life would have it, by necessity, I've had to become more aquatic, oceanic. And yet, hardly has the surface been scratched. The fact is: I HATE telling you about me. And I will do almost ANYTHING to avoid it. I won't call you for over a year. I won't make plans with you. I will change the subject. I will avoid eye contact with you. I will ask more and more questions about YOU. Because I don't WANT to tell you. "I don't want to talk about it;" that's what I used to say.
Someone that I once loved MOST, more than anything else in the world, even more than I loved God, he told me, "Tessa, you know, if you don't learn to talk about your problems, someday that's going to harm you." Fast forward a decade & a half, he was right. Severe depression, almost fatal; a health collapse--it FELT fatal. And yet there I was, still alive: having to confess all I NEVER WANTED TO CONFESS.
Here you see can see a record of my Facebook post.
Hi, my name is Tessa. I'm a dancer, choreographer, performer. The creator of the solo show, "Inner Reformation: an Autobiography Danced." It's my life story danced out. I began creating it on October 31, 2016. Now (October 31, 2019), I seek to put it into words! I am allowing myself 5 years to complete it, this written autobiography. Feel free to leave comments, share, "like" it, and so forth! And if you need anything, I'm here. Just write!